Wednesday, May 31, 2006
There were others causes of friction as well, including my apparently offbeat thoughts. Anyway, his constant cribs about my extensive malapropisms made me do a rethink on my style. Try as I might, I couldn't convince myself into believing the allegations.
Well, countless people before and after him have leveled charges against me on similar grounds. There must be some truth after all! Sid's mail simply adds cause to the conviction! Loved what he wrote...although it was mostly beyond the scope of my limited vocabulary!
Sid, the demarcation between me and 'normal' people was never so conspicuous! Thanks! Seriously, I'll try to do something about it. I love not belonging to the camp of 'normal' folks, but it's lonely camping in solitude.
(I'm posting Sid's mail as the first comment to this post.)
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
All those thoughts and elucidations were in vain! I feel so sorry for myself. Why did the text go missing? I never deleted it! If such anomalies are the norm for drafts, I'm afraid it calls for a serious rethink on my modus operandi for secret posts. I guess I'll have to look for other avenues. After all, I can't afford losing my most precious, intimate and potentially inflammable posts!
Gotta checkout Yahoo! 360 as a backup repository.
Monday, May 29, 2006
Tried some bowling. Discovered (not to my surprise) how horrible I could be. The trajectories the bowls followed had no idea where to head and what to do. They rolled aimlessly, randomly and leisurely to miss as many targets as possible. Sure, if we reversed the aim of the game, I would be a champion by default! But who would listen? I couldn't bear the humiliation much longer and embraced the relative sanctity of being a mere spectator.
Among the many things I didn't do were consuming alcohol, dancing (an improvisation of wild limb shaking to blaring noise mistaken for music) and jumping into the pool. Had a few meaningful discussions though. Overate, once again spoiling my resolve to shed weight. The mutton was too delicious to resist. Had 3 scoops of ice cream.
The return journey was delayed and we were getting despondent. Rescue came after many excruciating moments. Mantu was getting increasingly worried at home. When I finally reached my destination, it was well past midnight. Felt completely sapped. Checked my mail account, changed and fell asleep.
I'll exercise more restraint in the days to come, although the quantity of posts will not dwindle. They'll just be kept secret for the time being.
So expect a thinning of visible posts in the days to come.
Sunday, May 28, 2006
I think of the blessed day when the object of my affection had come home with me for the first time. I was tempted to doing it that very night, but better sense prevailed and I didn't. We just lay together in bed before I fell asleep.
But temptations are hard to resist and I finally did it for the first time! It was magical and very special, something that has kept me loyal for all these months. I can still recall the anticipation, the excitement, the apprehension, the uncertainty, the ogling and the decisive plunge. It was ecstatic! We lied together and I kept reminiscing what had just transpired between us. I drifted asleep after flirting with the idea of what lied ahead.
I did it regularly after that, although not with the prolific frequency I had originally intended. It was always the same magic, the same surge of emotions, the same overwhelming, the same chemistry and the same feeling of wonderment that egged me on to newer and hitherto unexplored levels. Doing it each time left me a little more experienced and complete.
Ya, I'm in the mood to do it again tonight. Gotta continue with page 64 of A Suitable Boy. Reading this book has been an experience in itself. Each time I do it, I'm wiser by a few pages. Vikram Seth's insight into the nuances of the human psyche is amazing.
It was lazy-hazy-crazy yesterday and Santosh expressed the desire to have chicken for dinner, a prospect I greedily latched onto. I sponsored, Santosh cooked and we ate to our heart's content. And there was enough to last us for lunch today. I guess my sponsorship has been well exploited! Even the PC couldn't accommodate all the surplus chicken at once. The stock could even drag on till dinner. Let's see. I'm only worried about by expanding waistline!
Addendum: The neighbours have been trickling in ever since word got out. Wish I could shoo them away!
Saturday, May 27, 2006
Friday, May 26, 2006
Prasant, let me tell you why I didn't got to your birthday party: I hate crowds, and there were too many invitees. I hope you can forgive me for being so contemptuous. I don't regret not going, but I felt awfully guilty for not giving in even when you had insisted so hard on me joining.
Reached home late last night.
How time flies.
Even my thoughts are incoherent.
Thursday, May 25, 2006
Santosh is now a contributor to the Hindi edition of Wikipedia. Busy punching entries for Jhanjharpur!
And we finally had mushrooms for dinner. Absolutely delicious!
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
So Gurdas (fondly called Gorudas-a slave of cows!) called me up tonight and it was only then that I recalled receiving the email. Caught up with a lot of things. Rahul is in TISCO, Jamshedpur. Amarendra was last spotted somewhere in Jamshedpur. Shukanto-the biggest mystery of our batch-has apparently accomplished something commendable, although Gurdas couldn't really recall what it was. I just wish these people would take sufficient initiatives to be in touch with us. Living in the social fringe hardly helps. I should know!
I informed Gurdas about Bads being in the US, slated to come to India soon for a month-long stint after which he'll be back there. Gurdas enquired if he's coming to India just for laundry! We had a laugh.
Gurdas leaves for Mumbai tonight and I so wish we could schedule a meeting. Well, maybe next time. Nice to catch up with an old buddy!
Addendum: It seems the surdar is incapable of thinking of any place in Bangalore South of Koramangala! So when I said that JP Nagar was further South than what his limited imagination would let him think (Koramangala, of course!), he joked that I was probably in Kanyakumari!
Monday, May 22, 2006
Here are the answers I got:
- (f) I have been truely and madly in love about ten or twelve times so far. I am 53.
- (f) as many as you like
- (f) Most people never do . They just think they do. I would say its most likely that around 10 in a million actually fall head over heels in love with someone and receive those feelings back towards them. Pretty **** i know but truth!!
- (f) As often as it takes him to find the right person.
- (f) head over heels in love...twice! i'm 26. so i guess that would average out to once every 10 years.
- (m) According to the bible, just once. 1 Chronicles ch.13 tells us about love. Try looking that up and make sure that all of those attributes are there before you go jumping into something. It may save you a lot of pain.
- (m) Certainly at least 3 or 4, and probably more like 8 or 10.It would be an unlucky person not to have felt it at least a few times.
- (m) I'm 21, twice.. I don't know if there is a statistic on this. It really depends on each individual. Hopefully true love will find me someday. (pls let it be sooner than later!)
- (f) as many as you like until you find the right person
- i've fell in love one time... most people just think they are in love but they are just fooling theirselfs. i think most of the falling in "love" we get are in highschool when our hormones are going wild.
- several times, it all depends on what type of person you are.
- (m) I Would Say 15 But Who Knows Im Only 15
- (m) many times..
- (m) As long as his/her heart beats, mind you, love could be for life itself among countless other things.
- (m) i have loved many gals..........but one girl is very special to me..........among all the others........that means i truly love that girl.........so to me true love comes only once.....
- (m) i would say 2 or 3 after that there to gaurded to make that mistake again!
- (f) only once i believe....no matter how many gfends/bfrends u have there is always one u will never forget or stop having feelings for whether u r together or not.
- (f) wel many pple feel jus 1ce but sorry ive fallen twice n broken up so ders more dan 1 time a person falls in love !!!!! n dose who say once r plain liars.....
- Note the difference between 'falling in love'and 'being in love':you can fall in love many times.. but to truly love another is a once in a lifetime feeling, because when you really love you wont even consider anyone else, even if your love is unreflected. someone once said (and i find it to be very true) that when you are falling in love, you think the object of your love is perfect, with no flaws! she is your beautiful princess and he is your knight in shining armor. however, when you love you know the other is NOT perfect, you become aware of the other's faults but accept them, and love the other as he(she) is.the first is completely irrational, while the other borders and moves closer to rationality. we do crazy things for love, especially in the process of 'falling' but when you actually start thinking and you still love, accept the flaws of the other, and are not overly jealous (jealousy is a sign of falling in love) because mutual trust takes over then its an extremely rare occasion!!!of course, it is also very likely that true love never be found...
- well i am a believer that love comes only once in a lifetime, it may sound a bit extreme to all of you, but it is true ... people who say that they have fallen in love more than once may have been attracted to someone more than once, they may have been obssessed with someone more than once, but love? this feeling of superiority, of completness, the feeling of flying away ... this just comes once in a million years!!
- (m) I think it totally depends on the personality of an individual. For some it may be just another day in one's life. Like just falling in love for a while n then then just falling out the same relationship. However, for someone it might mean a lot. Like ..people say...they wait for that love to happen in their life.So, I think it's quite a subjective issue. However, in my opinion, I think..that true love can happen only once in lifetime...!!
My opinion will be posted in a fortnight's time. By the way, what do my readers opine?
Saturday, May 20, 2006
Funny: My vocabulary is rather limited...but Blogger's is much worse! I can excuse it for being ignorant of Indian names, but some of its suggestions are just too funny.
Here's the suggested alternative for Santosh: Sanitize. I won't even mention the other suggestions!
Friday, May 19, 2006
|Your Blogging Type is Artistic and Passionate|
You see your blog as the ultimate personal expression - and work hard to make it great.
One moment you may be working on a new dramatic design for your blog...
And the next, you're passionately writing about your pet causes.
Your blog is very important - and you're careful about who you share it with.
Thursday, May 18, 2006
Santosh, clearly, couldn't afford to see this...and instead sent her an entire video via Uploadr since the file was far too huge to be sent via email attachments. The process took an hour-and-a-half, but our boy has enough patience to last him a lifetime!
Expect repeats...though I'll not mention them here.
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
Society should be mature enough to assimilate views that are seemingly at loggerheads. That's the only way to social & personal amelioration. Sure there'll be people who'll be supremely upset by the very foundations of their faith being shaken. But if their faith is indeed right, shouldn't it be allowed to measure up to the challenge?
The beauty of civilization lies not in its homogeneity of thought...but in the lack of it. It's the multitude of thought processes that allow us to pick the best.
Look at what's happening today. Caste divides are once again gaining prominence in our society. As if we didn't have enough forces to divide us anyway, the political fraternity seems hell bent upon digging our graves.
The caste-system, an anomaly of ancient India is simply being reintroduces and reinforced by corrupt government polity. It's time for us all to see through the sinister motives behind it all and stand united in defeating the curse of caste discriminations.
It's heartening to see so many citizens (mostly students) joining forces to protest against the administration's ulterior schemes. All is not lost...at least not yet.
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
Now, they've done it again! Yahoo! has just unveiled its AJAX powered homepage while Microsoft has added Firefox support for the Windows Live Mail Experience, a niftier cousin to the vanilla Hotmail Classic View. And if you haven't guessed it yet, these upgrades once again happened on the same day...today!
Especially heartening is Microsoft's gradual support of the open source phenomenon. Their open source labs are hard at work trying to make interoperability a reality. If it treads the right course, its victory will be decisive. I was, am and will remain its greatest devotee!
BTW, it was my first day in the new cafeteria. The food tastes distinctively different. However, there isn't sufficient floor space or ventilation and the whole place looked too crowded for my liking. The canopy causes the place to resemble an oven in the afternoon. Enough to bake me in half-an-hour! Enjoyed the change though.
And I took my weight today(in the morning). Won't even bother to mention how dangerously the scale tipped! Never ever had I imagined such a day would dawn! It's time for some desperate measures.
It's a great facelift!
Addendum: OK, now IE too is showing up the new interface. There was a link to switch from the old to the new.
Monday, May 15, 2006
The post will resurface in the archive soon. I don't like innocuous posts being censored.
Santosh is now employed full-time in flirting with Youtube, Orkut and Wikipedia. Ever since I helped him discover the virtues of streaming video via Youtube, he has been busy entertaining himself with the choicest of streams, mostly Indian. Uploading some videos from his own computer was to follow soon, and it did so with fanatic regularity; even though the bandwidth-hogging exercise tried our patience. And if the connection is severed in the middle of the upload, it's back to square one! But my dear roommate is not to be deterred by such tribulations.
Here's an idiosyncrasy that had vexed us no end. Mani's computer acts as the proxy server for Santosh's PC. Each time sometime toggles a switch in his room on/off, there's an electrical disturbance that disconnects the systems from the Net. Now you can well imagine how irritating it is for us to put up with the frequent disconnections. The remedy is simple. We simply have to physically disconnect and then connect the modem! What a crude thing to do in cyberage!
Anyway, some guys scared the hell out of Santosh saying that blatant copyright infringements (by way of illegal uploads to Youtube) would land us all in trouble. Santosh was visibly upset and almost rebellious to the suggestion that the big guys would come hunting for him through his IP address. Ya, that could happen!
What's endearing is the heartening comments he has been receiving from strangers for the videos he has uploaded. That's yet another way of experiencing the novel phenomenon of social networking.
Wikipedia still reigns supreme on Santosh's daily agenda. His spirited inputs for Jhanjharpur (both textual and multimedia) would soon make the village look more illustrious than
So what does my roomie do when there's no Net connection? Romancing Picasa, of course! He spends his precious offline hours cropping, highlighting, rotating, color & contrast balancing, renaming...literally glorifying his image! How late into the night does he endulge into this covert hobby, I'll never know. But it's long after I've drifted asleep.
If people are griping about the photo, it simply means they've forgotten how mediocre I look in real life!
Friday, May 12, 2006
Thanks, buddy! I hardly merit the pains you took to answer my plaintive messages. Though I refute some of your views, I agree with most of what you said. I guess we choose friends who echo the voices in our subconscious mind. You echoed them well, although they were sometimes lacerating.
A friend like you is an asset. Thanks once again for being there.
Thursday, May 11, 2006
I was expecting things to return to normal after switching back to IE 6. Things were working fine until I got adventurous once again and decided to download the MSN Toolbar since it allowed tabbed browsing. I'm so used to tabbed browsing (via Firefox) and now that my task bar is so infested with a plethora of tasks that I just can't do without it.
Downloaded it. It worked fine for a day. Then it went crazy. The moment you tried opening the third tab, the IE window closed along with all other IE windows I had! Tried the same thing multiple times and each time the same problem surfaced.
This will be my last post complaining about IE. Frankly, I'm growing tired treading the same line. My cup of woes is flooding anyway.
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
Monday, May 08, 2006
I did, only to repent within a matter of few minutes. The bleeding-edge embracing IE came up with a peculiar memory error within a few minutes of being launched each time, forcing it to shut down. I tried it many times and each time the same memory error was being thrown at me. I even tried rebooting. Nothing helped.
Had to uninstall it after that. My previous flirtation with IE 7 had not been a happy one either. For the moment, I'll remain loyal to Mozilla Firefox. By the way, IE is indeed indispensable when surfing certain sites. And you don't even need to launch IE to visit those sites. Simply try IE Tab to use the IE rendering engine from within Firefox itself! Mission accomplished!
By the way, there are sites that indeed work better with Firefox!
I'll need time to recover. I've lost the will to write, I've lost the will to fight, I've lost the will to do anything creative. It's a given that I'm an emotional wreck and certaing things affect me deep. My thoughts are all clogged.
Friday, May 05, 2006
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
Monday, May 01, 2006
I love receiving comments from all and sundry because it lets me know what people think. There's nothing wrong in remaining anonymous, you are just exercising your right to privacy.
I value people who think and have an open mind. If you are one of them, you are indeed lucky! Few people have an independence of thought. Do you know why most people think alike and have the same views? It's because most people don't think at all! They simply latch on to borrowed thoughts of the precious few who can think!
I would appreciate your continuing to visit my humble blog. At least it'll prove my abysmal writing has sufficient pull!
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